Before you know it, you’ll fall (END)
Even if I told him I wanted to break up, I didn’t think he would accept it so easily.
But to be honest, I was surprised that Norihiro wouldn’t back down this much.
No matter how many false reasons I come up with, like I’ve fallen in love with someone else or I’m moving far away, he just says, “That’s not true,” and that’s the end of it.
I thought that if I told him I was cheating on him, he would dump me easily, but he didn’t show any signs of being upset and just cut me off, saying, “No way.”
Usually he listened carefully to whatever I said, but now it’s like he can’t hear me at all.
No matter what reasons I gave, it was just dismissed with a simple “That’s a lie,” as if to say that what I said didn’t mean anything.
(…I guess they don’t trust me.)
I guess that’s what it means when no one believes you no matter what you say.
I’m sure it’s true that he doesn’t want to break up, but I also feel like Norihiro is just being stubborn.
It would be strange to continue to have someone by my side as a lover who I can’t trust no matter what I say.
Maybe she’s just getting so desperate because she’s kept saying she doesn’t want to break up and now she can’t back out.
When I thought about it like that, everything seemed meaningless.
Even if I told the truth now, it would probably be denied.
I’ve been told it’s all a lie.
In that case, I guess I should just tell them I’m pregnant, since they probably won’t believe me anyway.
The thought popped into my head and blurted it out.
Ah, but I’d like to take precautions so that I don’t get accused of taking responsibility in a rush.
The most unpleasant and wrong thing would be to tie Norihiro down out of kindness or sympathy.
“I-I’ve had a baby with someone else, so I want to break up.”
“……teeth?”
No matter what I’ve said up until now, it’s just been dismissed with a blank look on my face as if it’s a lie.
And yet just now, just a little, Norihiro’s expression changed.
“Kihi,”
“…Why would you lie like that when you’ve told me all that?”
“What a lie…”
“Since you haven’t done anything with anyone else, your child is mine. Why don’t you tell me the truth?”
“I, I used proper birth control with Norihiro, and it was just once…there’s no way I could get pregnant.”
“When I do it, I do it. Why do I try to hide it?”
“…!”
Why do you believe it so easily this time?
The truth is picked up as if they know everything, and I gradually have no way to escape.
If you are questioned in detail, you won’t be able to hide anything and your weaknesses will be exposed.
In the end, they even found my mother and child health handbook, and when they asked if I wanted to take a DNA test to prove it, I couldn’t deny it anymore.
So, look, this is how it unfolded.
“Shall we get married?”
He naturally asked me that question, but I shook my head and said that I couldn’t do that.
Just as I imagined.
I thought that Norihiro would say something like that because he felt a sense of responsibility.
That’s why I didn’t want to say it.
“Why would you refuse?”
“…Norihiro is not responsible for this.”
“But he’s my child? It’s my fault that he’s like this, so it’s only natural that I should take responsibility for it.”
“That’s not true…”
Not normal at all.
I only did it once, and I used a condom to prevent pregnancy.
The possibility is extremely low and it was just a coincidence, so I can’t blame Norihiro.
“I don’t want to get married like this, I want Norihiro to get married at a time when I feel like it’s okay to get married properly.”
“I’m just saying this because I think now is the time.”
“You’re only saying that to take responsibility, aren’t you? That’s not good. You’ll lose the freedom to break up with me one day, and the possibility of dating someone better.”
It will disappear, he said.
Before I could finish my sentence, Norihiro, with an irritated look on his face, moved and covered my lips.
His tongue was hot as it slid in, and the passionate kiss felt as though it was taking away not just my words but my breath as well, making it hard to breath.
“Ah…”
“N-Don’t move.”
“Hmm… Ah.”
I think that went on for quite a long time.
By the time he let go I was completely out of breath and the saliva that had been connecting with me had thinned out and snapped off.
“Even if there was no pregnancy or anything, I would have taken drastic measures rather than breaking up with you. My agency doesn’t have a ban on relationships, and in the worst case scenario, I would have reported your marriage using your real name.”
“teeth,”
“I don’t need anyone other than you, and I wanted a child for that reason, so I made a move of my own free will. Please, won’t you give up and let me catch you soon?”
There’s no oxygen reaching my brain and I can’t properly absorb what I’m being told.
Even so, he looked extremely distressed, and I could tell that he was asking me for a favor.
I thought that maybe Norihiro really did love me and that he really wanted to marry me… Even though my mind was hazy, that was all I understood.
…I guess I’ll just give up and try to catch him.
Even if I struggled on my own, there’s no way I could beat this guy.
It started with “Hello, I’m your stalker.”
–This is just a story about first love