I know it’s not wanted
In response to a message from Norihiro saying, “I think I can go around 8 p.m. today,” I lied and replied that I had plans for today and couldn’t go.
We just spend time in that room when our schedules match, but it’s not like we’ve made a promise.
So there shouldn’t be a problem, but I don’t think I’d be able to cover it up nicely if someone asked me if there was something going on.
However, my worries turned out to be unfounded, and I was relieved for the time being when I received a message of approval immediately.
“…Really, what should I do?”
I don’t have any plans.
But I don’t want to see you right now.
If I saw Norihiro I might cry with anxiety.
I can’t help but wonder why this happened even though it only happened once.
It’s already been two months since I had sex with Norihiro.
That one time was the first and the last.
We still meet and spend time together almost every day, but I haven’t been held in his arms once since that day.
Even when we kiss and the atmosphere becomes like that, it doesn’t go any further, and even when I try to invite him in a roundabout way, I feel like he gently dodges it.
It makes me sad to think that I’m the only one who felt that good, but it’s not something I can force anyone to do, so I just have to wait a little while.
He says he wants to be with me every day and tells me he loves me, so I don’t think he hates me.
I thought so, but I was worried that he didn’t want to do that kind of thing with me anymore.
—And in that state, this.
I was worried because my period hadn’t come, but I still timidly used a pregnancy test, thinking that it had only happened once and there was no way that could be the case.
I bought it at a drugstore and, if I’m not mistaken, it indicates a positive result.
Seriously, what should I do?
The sex was a one-off that day, and she even used a condom.
It’s so amazing that it’s possible, with such an incredibly low probability, and even now after seeing the results, I can’t believe that there’s a baby in my belly.
”I’m pregnant.” What would happen if I told her now?
Because in this case, Norihiro is really not at fault.
It was just a one-time thing, so we can’t demand that they take responsibility, and it will be seen as a nuisance and a hassle.
Norihiro is a kind person so he wouldn’t say something like that, but I don’t think I could be happy about something that was said purely out of a sense of guilt.
Gradually my vision becomes blurred.
I don’t want to be a burden, but if things continue like this I’ll end up carrying something heavier than anything else.
(I need to think carefully and make a decision before it’s too late…)
I slowly stroke my belly but still don’t feel anything.
In a world blurred with tear films, the only thing that asserted its presence was the smartphone screen, lighting up to notify me of an incoming call.